Category: woes


The emails in my inbox at at work right now involve phrases like:

  • “That seems unethical and not to mention probably illegal…”
  • “We need to meet in person about this, preferably tomorrow…”

    The tension at my office
  • “That is not correct. I did not agree to that…” 
  • “I’m not following…”
  • “If he approaches you please do not engage with him …”

It’s DEFCON 2 over here.

And I got locked in a closet and had to yell for help from colleagues. In trying to make an appointment with my APRN, turns out she apparently isn’t in business anymore – so much for getting that script refilled. I also think I may be underdressed in my colorful knee-high socks, though HR says I’m fine. Just a bit out of sorts.

More coffee?


When I was dating a boy, his parents suggested that everyone considering marriage and children must watch “Parenthood,” the comedy with Steve Martin and a shining cast of stars. It’s funny on the surface, and full of true-to-life moments of angst, chagrin, frustration and attempts at success in relationships.  In a word, it’s a rollercoaster.

This past weekend I had the great fortune of hanging out with two dear girlfriends, one of which as an 18-month old toddler with her husband. Now, I have plenty of friends with babies and friends with toddlers. My dad remarried and I got a sister when I was 16. I worked in the church nursery and babysit. I’m not a newbie to children.

But I had not yet spent a solid 72 hours in the land of parenting. (And I bailed a couple times: a long run, a shopping spree, and I didn’t put the wee one to bed).  My takeaway: Wow. Full on amazement. The insanity. The laughter and joys. The new words. The smiles, the cuddles, the edible cuteness! The sheer exhaustion of the parents. The lack of sleep. The night terrors leading to long nights. The number of diapers. The amount of ‘stuff’ required for a trip to the grocery store. The constant sonar beacon of alertness. My god!  

And these are educated parents who are laid back, both equally involved in parenting (and I don’t say that lightly), whose daughter was an angel who listened and knew words and ate everything put in front of her. They tag-teammed for bedtime, they have family close by, a great daycare provider mere miles from the house at a reasonable price. It is ideal parenting with an ideal child in many ways and yet…it was so HARD. Every decision they make puts someone else ahead of themselves.

No wonder we can find books like “Go the F** to Sleep” and baby clothes that say, “I only cry when ugly people hold me.” There has to be something to release the tension and keep the sanity. I am just amazed – at the selflessness, the humor, the diplomacy with which my friends managed the weekend – and their lives as parents.  Wow.

Monday was not a Funday

H Street NE DC with a Harvest Moon

How do I say this nicely? Yesterday sucked. Hard. I ate fistfuls of M&Ms, drank copious amounts of coffee, left at 7pm then worked until 1am at home. I even tried to improve my mood with some levity of posting on here, only to be rebuffed – TWICE – by my own site telling me access was forbidden. Harumph.

Today I woke up on a better side of the bed, and apparently so did the rest of Washington, D.C. Perhaps it was this harvest moon that sprinkled a bit of warmth into us as we slept.
Or it could have been the fall flowers and wine my dearheart brought home to cheer me up as I sat on the floor listlessly eating Stacy’s Pita Chips.Regardless, I’ll take my improved mood, the sun shining and the reminder that I can create beauty, find beauty and recognize the beauty in gifts others give me. To quote Adele, “Count your blessings to find what you look for.”

OBX or …

Night 1 turned into Morning 1 as we stayed up to watch the sun rise.

Update 9/7/11: Awesome and amazing trip full of perfect sunny days and cool, breezy evenings. I recommend Corolla, NC to anyone looking for a relaxing beach trip.

Update 8/30/11: And we are go for launch!

Thanks, Irene. The tension continues as 8 people try to agree on a Plan B vacation. Couple fights, misinformation, exchanges including: my preparendess knowledge is better than yours, how much money can you spend, where is a beach open within driving range, how can we say it’s okay if the rental office is flooded, do you care if the pool and spa have debris floating in them, what about a lake house out west, can you change your vacation days, when does the travel insurance kick in, i might need you to watch my cat…